December Daze

Apologies for the semi-cliche alliteration title.   Every December I feel kind of weird like I’m not myself and like I’m just confused about my entire life.  Oh yeah, this is normal for me to not feel normal.  I know it’s because I have an internal clock that tells me it’s almost my birthday.  It’s almost Capricorn season. It’s almost the New Year.  It’s almost my chance for a new start.

I feel weird that I haven’t watched a single Hallmark Christmas movie.  Christmas music hasn’t been played much at all.  I have had a lot of junk food and not the fun holiday-themed kind.  Totally trying to fill a void.  I’m very honest about that.  It’s been a strange ride the last few months because I’ve been so aware of the subtle changes in my daily habits and my desires for my life.  Then I would get annoyed that I wasn’t where I thought I should be.  It takes times to achieve great things.

I’m the girl who needs to figure things out and know “why.”  But, that’s not my job.  I’ve made it my job for 28 years.  That was the actual problem.

I decided to rally and make my list of movies to watch before the holidays are over.  I’m the crazy blend of control and fun traditions so I actually would get a little mad at myself if I didn’t do all the traditional Christmas activities I thought I had to do.   Isn’t that nuts?  I’d get a bit worked up internally thinking I didn’t fulfill my duties as the good little girl I thought I needed to be in order to make the perfect Christmas season.  What if I didn’t watch Christmas Vacation?!?!  That means my holiday will be ruined!  That’s a tad dramatic but that’s where my brain went.  Now I actually think, “It would be nice if I get to watch all the movies on my list, but I know I’ll get to the ones I’m meant to get to!”   That’s how the universe works for us.  If it’s not meant to cross our paths, then we missed  nothing of importance.

Who would have ever thought I’d feel less anxious by dropping the reins and giving up control?  Seriously, major.

Here is my movie list that I’ve yet to watch! Some might not be classics to most, but to me, they’re perfect.

Lightening the mood a little! We go on a “Christmas light tour” every year.  This just us driving around the area to see everyone’s lights, including a drive-by of the Christmas Village.  We wear are pjs, clearly!

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I suggested we stop for peppermint sundaes for the ride!  This was so amazing.  It was candy cane soft serve, brownies, hot fudge, whipped cream, and candy cane pieces!  IMG_6918

 

I’m officially the last person to discover some of the hats, filters, whatever you call them. And…then I sent this pic to my mom.IMG_6871

I’m wishing everyone a relaxed, joyful few days leading up to Christmas.  Enjoy all the little things that come with the rush of the season.

~Whitney Victoria

 

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October is Here

It’s started feeling like October…  That means two things: I’m fully embracing Fall even though it’s bright and sunny and not completely sweater weather.  And, I’m reading every horoscope I can find in an effort to know that to expect.  When a wellness obsession meets control issues, this is what happens.  I fully admit I go through times when I’m so desperate to know what the future holds that I grasp at straws to get any kind of insight.  It’s so hard to just “let go” and trust that everything unfolds just as it should.

Anyway, October has been a month I’ve been anxious to arrive basically since January 2017. I’m not entirely sure why.

Libra Season.  My moon is in Libra.  (Your moon sign is about your inner feelings…you know, those things I don’t share with anyone because I’m locked up like a Gringotts bank vault.) Libra is all about creating a space for equal communication so everyone is happy and feels understood. (Balance, people. Libra’s symbol is the scales of justice.)

Sometimes I think I just want to stayed holed up all Sunday but I end up feeling like I’m in the Shining.  I need a few hours to recharge and it’s amazing but too much and it becomes isolating.  So, as I put on some easy listening, I do some self-love practices…which means I’m in the bathroom exfoliating, conditioning, manicuring, and lord knows what else, for approximately 4 hrs.  A girl’s life…Before this went down, I walked to the farmer’s market to get out of the house.  The market was a nice little jaunt in the sun.  It let me enjoy the beautiful weather.  I didn’t come away with much but I’m happy with it all.

Organic raspberries, that are late for the season but I couldn’t resist. I’m thinking about throwing them in a chocolate protein pancake.  IMG_5362

I splurged on a raspberry mocha since i’m usually the black iced coffee kind of girl and I’m happy to report this was delicious!  And, I swear to God, those leaves were there; they were not planted for the photo.  Honest.

IMG_5323Last week I was fantasizing about flowers but couldn’t seem to find what I had in mind.  These were colorful and fall-y enough!  IMG_5308

I thought these sweet potatoes were funny-looking so of course I bought them!  I have a soft-spot for homely things like Charlie Brown Christmas trees.  Underdogs, runts of a litter?  They speak my language.  IMG_5360

Not a farmer’s market find but I like to prep some vegetables for the week on Sundays.  I went green on green.  Broccoli and green beans with diced onions.  I throw them on salads or in eggs for breakfast and sometimes dinner.  It’s worth doing it ahead of time for so many reasons.  Nutritional yeast on broccoli is wonderful.

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Showing off the bright and beautiful wreath made by my mommy that I loved for summer but I’m feeling it’s time for something for autumn inspired!  I think I’m going to try my hand at wreath arranging this go round.  I see burlap and bows…IMG_5302I’m obsessed with this top I bought at Nordstrom Rack like 2 months ago but it hasn’t been cold enough to wear it until now.  It’s soft like wearing pjs.  Bell sleeves are everywhere and I’m all aboard. I would like this one in the other 8 colors.IMG_5255

Moccasins are back with a vengeance for at least the next 6 months of my life.  It’s the ultimate loungey, cool shoe vibe I like to go for.IMG_5270

Welp, I’m all beauty-prepped, food-prepped, and as mentally-prepped as I’d like to be so bring on October.  Look at that sunlighting!IMG_5326

“I’m glad I live in a world where there are Octobers.”  -Anne of Green Gables

~Whitney Victoria