Apologies for the semi-cliche alliteration title. Every December I feel kind of weird like I’m not myself and like I’m just confused about my entire life. Oh yeah, this is normal for me to not feel normal. I know it’s because I have an internal clock that tells me it’s almost my birthday. It’s almost Capricorn season. It’s almost the New Year. It’s almost my chance for a new start.
I feel weird that I haven’t watched a single Hallmark Christmas movie. Christmas music hasn’t been played much at all. I have had a lot of junk food and not the fun holiday-themed kind. Totally trying to fill a void. I’m very honest about that. It’s been a strange ride the last few months because I’ve been so aware of the subtle changes in my daily habits and my desires for my life. Then I would get annoyed that I wasn’t where I thought I should be. It takes times to achieve great things.
I’m the girl who needs to figure things out and know “why.” But, that’s not my job. I’ve made it my job for 28 years. That was the actual problem.
I decided to rally and make my list of movies to watch before the holidays are over. I’m the crazy blend of control and fun traditions so I actually would get a little mad at myself if I didn’t do all the traditional Christmas activities I thought I had to do. Isn’t that nuts? I’d get a bit worked up internally thinking I didn’t fulfill my duties as the good little girl I thought I needed to be in order to make the perfect Christmas season. What if I didn’t watch Christmas Vacation?!?! That means my holiday will be ruined! That’s a tad dramatic but that’s where my brain went. Now I actually think, “It would be nice if I get to watch all the movies on my list, but I know I’ll get to the ones I’m meant to get to!” That’s how the universe works for us. If it’s not meant to cross our paths, then we missed nothing of importance.
Who would have ever thought I’d feel less anxious by dropping the reins and giving up control? Seriously, major.
Here is my movie list that I’ve yet to watch! Some might not be classics to most, but to me, they’re perfect.
- I’ll Be Home for Christmas
- Christmas Vacation
- A Muppets Christmas Carol
- It’s a Wonderful Life
- A Very Brady Christmas
- Miracle on 34th Street (’94)
- Jingle All the Way
- …To Grandmother’s House We Go
- Die Hard
Lightening the mood a little! We go on a “Christmas light tour” every year. This just us driving around the area to see everyone’s lights, including a drive-by of the Christmas Village. We wear are pjs, clearly!
I suggested we stop for peppermint sundaes for the ride! This was so amazing. It was candy cane soft serve, brownies, hot fudge, whipped cream, and candy cane pieces! 
I’m officially the last person to discover some of the hats, filters, whatever you call them. And…then I sent this pic to my mom.
I’m wishing everyone a relaxed, joyful few days leading up to Christmas. Enjoy all the little things that come with the rush of the season.
~Whitney Victoria
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